In the Belly of a Whale

My Journey through His Addiction

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Month: October 2018

Beautiful Boy…..

When my kiddo was 12 he got caught smoking pot with a another kid from our church youth group.  To say I was devastated is an understatement. Of course that was his first time and we weren’t going to have Read more…


Do I Help Or Not?

This question is not about my addicted, incarcerated son but rather other parents of addicts.  I am not super consistent with my weekly PAL meetings but I’m consistent enough that some of us have been together for a couple of Read more…


The Honeymoon period…..

This sounds like a weird post since this blog is primarily about my son but I couldn’t think of a better way to describe this period of time.  Life with my son in his addiction gets so very chaotic.  I Read more…


What Do I Do With This (anger)????

Sometimes I don’t know what to do with the anger.  Lately I feel like I have finally gotten to the point where I’ve had enough.  In the last several years my bar has been set lower and lower for the Read more…


When Jail = Relief

Knowing son is in jail is not what I imagined would be the thing that brought me solace but here we are.  He’s been there 6 days and in that time I can hear his head clearing, slowly pushing away Read more…


How are we supposed to feel?

I have someone I call a friend that has confided in me about her father’s alcoholism and how it has affected her and her family.  She is a grown woman with a husband and children.  She is also the oldest Read more…


The Phone Call Panic…..

As the mother of an addict, my stomach drops each time I get a text alert or phone call from my son.  I also enter panic mode when I don’t hear from him in more than 2 days.  Through this Read more…


Till I’m Blue in the Face

I think I have the same conversation with my son over and over and over.  It starts out with a text, after I’ve told him “I’m done”.  The text will have some long drawn-out crisis and ends with he’s hungry Read more…