In the Belly of a Whale

My Journey through His Addiction

Sometimes the Conversations Aren’t So Good…..

My son had court and he reluctantly signed to 3.5 years in prison for his 3rd possession charge.  He will be 27ish when he gets out.  Its sad to me that there is not some other option to prison for Read more…


Another Thanksgiving….

Holidays/The Holiday Season is tough.  He has either been in rehab, running from rehab or in jail for the last few years.  I remember the Thanksgiving before I really knew about heroin. It was 2014 and he was 20.  He Read more…


Jail—Good, Bad, Confusing

My son has been in jail now for over a month.  He has a court date coming up that will determine if a judge gives him 4.5 years in prison or shows a little mercy.  Since his release from his Read more…


The Greatest Thing….”Them”

Through all this heartache, stress, uncertainty and fear, I still get to experience the times when all 3 of my kids are together.  No matter what my son is doing in life, he has always had the support of his Read more…


The One Left Behind….

By that I mean the girlfriend.  While my son was out on the street practicing his extreme form of relapse, he was with his girlfriend,  Quick summary—he met her a couple of years ago when he was court-ordered to a Read more…


Life Feels Weird……

So after many months (this time) of my son being on the streets, using, manipulating and all the other crappy stuff that goes on when he is in active addiction, he is now safe and sound in jail.  Its been Read more…


Beautiful Boy…..

When my kiddo was 12 he got caught smoking pot with a another kid from our church youth group.  To say I was devastated is an understatement. Of course that was his first time and we weren’t going to have Read more…


Do I Help Or Not?

This question is not about my addicted, incarcerated son but rather other parents of addicts.  I am not super consistent with my weekly PAL meetings but I’m consistent enough that some of us have been together for a couple of Read more…


The Honeymoon period…..

This sounds like a weird post since this blog is primarily about my son but I couldn’t think of a better way to describe this period of time.  Life with my son in his addiction gets so very chaotic.  I Read more…


What Do I Do With This (anger)????

Sometimes I don’t know what to do with the anger.  Lately I feel like I have finally gotten to the point where I’ve had enough.  In the last several years my bar has been set lower and lower for the Read more…